sexualabuse – Sereniti Sparkles

God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change

Courage to change the things I can

and the Wisdom to know the difference…

This is the most simple and rewarding path to true inner peace.

We often go through hardships that we feel overtake our soul. They are so painful that we can’t find a way through. Usually the pain is in sync with so many other feelings, such as love, disappointment, fear, anxiety, and sadness. When we feel this type of pain, it can be almost too unbearable for us. Days can go by that you sit in this dark place. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and you can’t imagine a day without this pain.

This is when I turn to the words listed at the beginning.

God Grant me the serenity to ACCEPT the things I cannot change. This is most valuable. There are external factors to your experience on earth. That be, the feelings of others, the actions of others, environmental circumstance, economic loss, among many others. These are things that we have to accept. It is just the way it is, but how can you make a difference for your life. How can you become better, despite the circumstance. Baby Steps…

Courage to change the things I can. Courage is a word so powerful in its sound that it lifts us. What is courage? Courage can mean extreme change, control, or thoughtfulness no matter the circumstance. Courage is walking through the fire because you believe happiness is to come again.

And, WISDOM to know the difference. Be wise with your choices. Accept when you can’t change something and move on. Walk through the fire if you know that you will be lifted because of it. Always, be wise, listen to your inner voice. It is the voice that guides us all.

This blog post is dedicated to my daughter, Sereniti. Mommy has always got you, in this life and forever.

Believe that you can be happy for this moment in time. Believe that you were meant to live in the light.

I write these words, because there was once a time where the words were the only clue of what it felt like to live in the light. These words that I give often are the same words that saved me from a grim future. These words, my words, saved my life.

These are how the words would speak to me, even when I was blinded by gloom.

Believe that you can be happy for a moment in time, stop living with the burden that something tragic is about to present itself.

The burden becomes the chains that wear you. They inhibit true bliss. They live in the unexpected, because the chains are uncertain. They live because of the tragic moments you’ve experienced and fear to relive. You lie awake at night and your mind races. The chains cover you. Each day brings new sunlight and new opportunity, but you don’t seek it. At times you can’t even see the light ahead.

Then one day you face the fear and remove the burden. You recognize that without each tragedy, the happy moments and miracles that come to you wouldn’t have been possible. That you have become even more authentic because of the pain. You realize that you walked through abuse, death, illness, loneliness and found the light again.

The glimpse of light came from the voice within you. You learned to wear those tragic experiences like a badge. At one point you felt the world had failed you, that you had failed you, but instead of ending it all, you chose to keep searching for the light.

You realized that through your entire life, subconsciously, you had been filling a bottle of happy experiences and excited feelings. When in you darkest moments, the bottle would show you the light.

Humility is that bottle. Humility is what reminds us all that no matter how tragic or terrible our existence is, if we are granted another day, then we have everything we need to HEAL.